Zero nine

Chapter 1

For three weeks, I rearranged my entire life around a dying neighbor everyone else had forgotten. What nobody knew was that every night at 9 PM, she listened to a confession I had carried for years, and the reason she understood it would change everything.

"You want her HOUSE!"

Susan's nephew was screaming on my porch so loudly that two neighbors had already stepped outside to watch.

"You want a dying woman's savings! We're calling the police, TODAY!"

I stood in the doorway with one hand gripping the frame.

Behind me, somewhere down the hall, Susan was sleeping.

At least, I hoped she was.

Five years.

That's how long it had been since any of them had visited her.

I knew because I lived across the street, and I counted.

My name is Sam.

I'm a 31-year-old bachelor who works from home, and until three weeks earlier, my life had been painfully quiet.

Then, Susan got sick.

She was 76, frail, fading fast, and almost entirely alone.

Now she was sleeping in my spare bedroom.

Her nephew, Greg, pointed toward the hallway behind me.

"You moved an elderly woman into your house without telling her family."

"I didn't know how to reach you," I replied.

"You didn't try hard enough."

His wife, Marcy, stood beside him with her arms folded.

"Greg, don't argue with him," she said. "We should just call the police."

I looked from one face to the other.

Neither of them had been sitting beside Susan when she woke at 2 AM, afraid she could not breathe.

Neither had cleaned spilled soup from her nightgown.

Neither had waited outside the bathroom because she was embarrassed to admit that she was too weak to stand without help.

But I didn't say any of that.

I simply told them, "Susan asked to stay here."

Greg laughed.

"She's dying, Sam. She doesn't know what she's asking."

A car slowed as it passed my house.

Someone inside stared toward the porch.

That was how the rumors started.

By evening, half the street seemed to know that I had "taken in" a dying woman.

By the following morning, the story had changed.

According to one neighbor, I was trying to get Susan to change her will.

According to another, I had convinced her that her family had abandoned her.

Someone even told my friend Joel that Susan had already signed her house over to me.

None of it was true.

Joel came over that afternoon carrying groceries.

He dropped the bags on my kitchen counter and stared at me.

"Why on earth are you doing this?"

I opened the refrigerator.

"Doing what?"

"You know what."

He lowered his voice.

"You're helping her bathe, cooking for her, waking up every few hours, arguing with relatives, and now people are saying you're after her money."

"I don't care what people say."

"You should."

I turned toward him.

"She had nobody."

Joel's expression softened.

"That's not your responsibility."

I looked down at the carton of soup in my hands.

That sentence stayed with me.

Responsibility.

For years, I had been telling myself that my mother had not been my responsibility either.

At least, that was the excuse I had once used.

My father walked out when I was young.

After that, Mom did everything.

She worked long hours, gave up things she wanted, and somehow found enough money to help her children get through college.

I went to school in another state.

My siblings eventually built lives far from home, too.

Mom had always been strong, so when her health began to fail, none of us understood how serious it was.

She didn't tell us.

Whenever I called, she said the same thing.

"I'm fine, Sam. Don't fuss."

Because I wanted to believe her, I did.

By the time we realized how much help she needed, there was very little time left.

Years passed, but the guilt never did.

I had never truly forgiven myself for not being there for her the way she had always been there for me.

Susan knew that I had lost my mother, but she never asked many questions.

We had been neighbors for years.

She waved when I collected my mail.

Sometimes, she brought me muffins.

Once, when my kitchen sink started leaking, she stood in the doorway and informed me that I was holding the wrench backward.

She laughed about that for weeks.

Then, a month ago, I noticed that her curtains had not opened.

I crossed the street and knocked.

No answer.

I knocked again.

"Susan?"

I heard something inside, followed by the scrape of a chair.

Then came a weak voice.

"Sam?"

When she finally opened the door, I barely recognized her.

Her robe hung loosely from her shoulders.

Her face looked gray.

She tried to smile.

"I suppose I look terrible."

"You look sick."

"That's less polite."

I helped her to the sofa.

The next several days became a blur of appointments, medication schedules, and phone calls.

She was seriously ill, and her strength was disappearing quickly.

She had relatives, but none lived nearby.

When I asked whether someone could come, Susan looked toward the window.

"They're busy."

"You need help."

"I have help."

Her eyes moved toward me.

I didn't understand at first.

Then, I did.

I had a spare bedroom.

I worked from home.

And every time I looked at Susan sitting alone in that house, I thought about my mother telling all of us that she was fine.

So I made the offer.

"Come stay with me."

Susan stared at me.

"No."

"You can't be alone."

"I'll manage."

"That's exactly what my mother used to say."

Something changed in her expression.

I didn't understand why.

After a long silence, she whispered, "Alright."

Three weeks later, my quiet house had become a place of medicine bottles, folded blankets, soup bowls, and whispered conversations.

Susan's relatives arrived only after a neighbor managed to contact them.

They came angry.

Greg, her son, demanded that Susan return home.

Marcy, her daughter, accused me of isolating her.

Another relative called me a manipulator.

By the end of the week, the accusations had become uglier.

"Elder abuse."

"Emergency custody."

"Lawyers."

"Police."

Greg even told people I was trying to gain access to Susan's inheritance.

I never argued with them.

I closed the door, returned to Susan's room, and made sure she was warm.

But there was something none of them knew.

Every evening, at exactly 9 PM, I performed the same ritual.

I checked Susan's medicine, helped her drink some water, and adjusted the blankets around her shoulders.

Then, I pulled a wooden chair beside her bed.

I leaned closer and told Susan something I had never been able to say to anyone else.

"I should've gone home sooner."

Susan listened.

Every night.

"I knew Mom was getting older," I whispered one evening. "I knew she sounded tired. I heard it in her voice, Susan. I heard it, and I still believed her when she said she was fine."

Susan reached for my hand.

Her fingers had almost no strength, but she gently patted my knuckles.

"I was her son," I continued. "I should've known."

Tears glinted in Susan's eyes.

She did not interrupt.

She never did.

That was our ritual.

At 9 PM, I confessed.

Susan listened.

I told her about the last birthday I had missed, the call I had postponed because I was busy, and the weekend I had almost flown home before changing my mind because Mom insisted there was no reason.

Finally, I told Susan the thing I could barely admit to myself.

"I think she died believing I didn't need her anymore."

Susan's lips trembled.

I lowered my head.

"And I don't know how to live with that."

Her fingers closed around mine.

The next morning, Greg returned.

This time, he wasn't alone.

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Marcy stood beside him, along with her daughter, Laura.

A police officer waited near the sidewalk.

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